想要的

那天你问我想要什么？我说想给孩子撑起一个角落，做自己喜欢做的事，想和你在一起。今天我读到了这句话：
    I wanted only to try to live in accord with
    the promptings which came from my true self.
    Why was that so very difficult?
这是德语作家赫尔曼·黑塞（Hermann Hesse）写在小说《德米安》的引言。是的，我想做真正的自己。这不容易，因而我们努力，努力，再努力。
再来读读这两句话：
    Oh, love isn't there to make us happy. I believe it exists to show us how much we can endure.
    That's the way it is when you love. It makes you suffer, and I have suffered much in the years since. But it matters little that you suffer, so long as you feel alive with a sense of the close bond that connects all living things, so long as love does not die!
所以我们忍耐，我们等待。
希望再见面时，既见到你，又找到自己。没有人不回家，那时我就到家了。这就是我想要的。