十五和小夜的梦（二）Fifteen’s second dream
十五和小夜的梦
Fifteen and smallnight’s dreams
十五的梦（二）
Fifteen’s second dream
我耳鸣的厉害。
I had this terrible tinnitus.
那是我自己第一次吃梦药剂，我自己研究出来的梦药剂。
I was first time using sueno myself.
我躺在黑暗里，四下无声。我以为我会陷入到无限的回忆里，我和孙楚的过去，我闭上双眼，看到的只是一篇黑暗，和轰隆隆的耳鸣。就像在催眠的深坑里，不能移动，不能出声。而那轰隆有起有伏，有一点点像贝壳里大海的回声，又有点像湖水的波纹。
In the darkness, in the silence, I thought I would sink into my endless memory - the memory about Sun Chu and me. I closed my eyes to stare at the liquid link, and I heard this terribly turbulent tinnitus. In the void, just like being hypnotized, I was paralyzed. That turbulent tinnitus was climbing and descending, aggrandizing and diminishing. It was like the echo in the shell, and it was like the ripples on that lake.
“你要穿什么去美希尔的party？”孙楚问我。
“what are you wearing for Macy’s party?” Sun Chu asked me.
“不知道，你要穿什么？”我反问。
“I dunno. What you going to wear?” I asked back.
“我只想穿你。”孙楚解开她的衬衫领口，挑逗的看我。我得承认孙楚是撩火的一把好手，她知道怎么利用自己的身体，更关键的是她的身体实在完美的过火。
“I’ll just wear you.” Sun Chu unbuttoned her shirt, looking at me provokingly. I got to admit Sun Chu was good at this. She knew how to use her body advantage, and she had a perfectly advantageous body.
孙楚就像一只优雅懒散的猫，乖巧轻盈的走向我。她把双手搭载我的肩上，冰冷的指尖轻轻划过我的锁骨，至上而下的俯视我，戴着她那迷人又危险的微笑。而我像她掌下的一只幼鼠，兴奋，颤抖，恐惧，不知所措，被她深深吸引着。
Sun Chu was an elegant and fainéant cat, walking towards me like a butterfly. She feathered her hands on my shoulders, traced a line alongside my clavicles, and looked down at me, wearing her charming and dangerous smile, whereas I was a naïve mouse under her paw, excited, quivering, fearful, helpless and so attracted by her.
猎人与猎物。
We are predator and prey.
猫是邪恶的猎人，对于他们而言狩猎只是一种乐趣而已。
A cat is a sinister hunter. A cat kills for fun.
我的心一阵刺痛，因为我读懂她眼中的欲望。她只是在玩弄我。
A stab went through my heart, as I deciphered the desire in her pupillae. She was just killing me for fun.
她双眸清澈，睫毛闪烁。像蝴蝶震动双翅，露水打湿蓑衣，像失去幼崽的母狼呜咽，时钟指针爬过岁月，像我的心跳摇摇欲坠。我闭上眼睛，流下泪。孙楚吻了我的眼泪，吻了我的嘴。裂缝的蝶翼，残破的蓑衣，心碎的母亲，电力不足的挂表，已经不能再更疼我的心，是我的耳鸣，在被亲吻的黑暗里一声一声地呼唤我。
Sun Chu had crystal eyes, eyelash trembling, like a moth expanding wings emerging from a cocoon, a dew striking on the Mino, like the moan of a mother wolf that lost her kid, hands of the clock massaging time, like my broken heart about to fall. I closed my eyes. A tear dropped. Sun Chu kissed my tear. Sun Chu kissed me. Injured wings, ripped Mino, shattered mother, senescence hands, and my a million pieces heart, are all my tinnitus, calling my name in the dark, in her kiss.
“让时间之河倒流，所以我才能”
“Hold back the river, So I”
“片刻停留，看清你何处藏身。”
“can stop for a minute and see where you hide”
这是我听到的旋律，孙楚的声音。
Those are the rhyme in my sueno. Those were sung by Sun Chu.
蝶翼破茧的声音，雨露下落的声音，悲鸣声，时钟前进的声音，心碎的声音，流泪的声音，亲吻的声音，都是孙楚的声音。都是我轰隆的耳鸣。每一个音节被拉长放慢到几乎无限，主观上我有无限的时间来检视每一个无限微小的音节。 或者说我的大脑速度被放大到可以自然捕捉一段音频的全部信息。
The sound of emerging, of striking, of moaning, of tickling, of tears falling, of kisses on my lips, was all sound of Sun Chu. It was all the turbulence of my tinnitus. Every syllable was spaghetti ed to infinite. Subjectively, time would be expanded, and I had infinite time to encoding and decoding all the raw audio data. Or say, my brain was fast enough to understand every single piece of audio data.
美希尔的派对是为了庆祝她刚刚在人工智能领域取得的突破。美希尔是我和孙楚的好朋友，一位理论家，纳米学者。当时的学界普遍认同了雷蒙德 库兹维尔的的“人类将成为生物与非生物的混合物”的理论和预言，美希尔则是学界第一个在临床上成功将电子脑付诸实践的学者。当然这些研究都在极秘密的进行，庆功宴也只是小范围的亲友参与。但是大家都难掩激动，电子脑的成功是“人机”文明的第一步，如果人脑真的可以电子化，那么人类社会发生天翻地覆的变化是必然，“人机”文明近在咫尺。
Macy’s party was to celebrate her breaking success in Artificial intelligence. Macy was a very good friend of Sun Chu and me, a theorist, a nanobiologist. The theory of human-machine civilization by Raymond Kurzweil was widely accepted by the Reach. Macy was the first one in the Reach achieved a cyberbrain on clinically study. Of course, those studies were undertaken extremely secretly, and that party only had a few good friends in the Reach invited. Everyone was so excited about this breaking news. Cyberbrain is the very first step of human-machine civilization. If a human brain can be cyberized and datalized, the basis of whole humanity civilization will change dramatically. Humanity will welcome human-machine civilization soon.
“目前电子脑还十分不成熟，也不稳定。”日尔曼人美希尔十分会讲官话，卖关子“当然我们有信心尽快取得进一步的成果。毕竟学界里人才济济” 美希尔环顾四周，“只要我们勇于钻研，乐意共享，下一个决定性的突破不会离我们太遥远。”美希尔举起酒杯，在座各位隔空敬酒。
“ATM cyberbrain is not stabilized and mature yet.” Germani Macy was very good at public speech and talking like an important asshole. “ but of course, we believe that, we can and we will achieve our next victory soon. We have so many talents in the Reach,” Macy looked around, and continued, “we are achieving our next victory soon as long as we keep working and sharing.” Macy held the glass high, and everyone toasted to the air.
孙楚喝的双颊绯红。她穿了一条墨绿色的真丝深v连衣裙，没带任何首饰，却如此的艳光四射。
Sun Chu, alcoholic, had a bit Rosé on her cheek. She was wearing an emerald color silk dress, no jewelry, and so stunning.
孙楚和学界里的另一位人脑科学家正在耳语，“人脑传递信息的速度远不及可以按光速传播的电元……”我只听见断续，但这也不是什么新鲜的东西。早在几十年前，我们就已经确认我们的颅骨空间上限只能储存100兆个元间，人类的先天设计，生物结构，大小，能源摄取与消耗都决定了人类很难进化到超机器智能。
Sun Chu was talking to a cognitive scientist from the Reach, “the light speed that machine can process and switch signals outspeeds at least million times of the way human mammalian brains work…” I only heard a chip, but it was nothing new. A few decades ago, we’ve learnt that there’s room for approximately 100 trillion interneuronal connections in each of our skulls. The space, size, energy intake and consumption, engineering design, everything is limiting humanity to reach the next level.
“ 人类只有彻底拜托DNA编程的大脑才能拥抱未来。”人脑科学家说道。
“we’ll have to get ride of our DNA-based brain to embrace the further.” Said the cognitive scientist.
到达未来。
TO REACH THE FURTHER.
“所以下一步的研究重心会在电子脑群如何进行信息传播和处理上。”美希尔从他们身边走过，十分顽皮的插了一句话。“我简直等不及看到几百个电子脑一起工作的场景。”
“So the next step will emphasize on cyberbrain flock information exchanging and processing.” Macy walked pass by them and interrupted in a mischievous way. “I cant wait to see a few hundreds cyberbrains outa there working together.”
美希尔走向我，“你最近和孙楚怎么样？”她问，我心想这女人真八卦。
Macy walked to me, “How is everything going between Sun Chu and you?” she asked. What an annoying woman – I thought.
“好的没谁了。”我回答。
“Cant be better.” I answered.
“你打算给自己换一个电子脑吗？”轮到我问问题了，顺便向一个好朋友兼八卦的女性问好。
“any plan getting yourself a cyberbrain?” my turn to ask, and my way to greet a dear friend and an annoying woman.
“不会。”简短的回答。
“No.” A very brief answer.
老实说，我不很关心为什么，也懒得问为什么。
TBH, I didn’t care why not, and I didn’t bother to ask.
“你有什么要给我的吗？”美希尔是我的一位好朋友，也是一位十分八卦的女性，同时还是一位十分喜欢提出要求索要礼物的科学家。
“ do you have anything for me?” Macy was a dear friend, an annoying woman, and a very demanding scientist.
“有。”我点点头。“我管它叫药剂梦。”
“Yes.” I nodded. “it’s called sueno. “
