Boyhood 少年时代：沟通 音乐 社交

港版 Boyhood 海报

About Natural Conversations

-Nononono, that is not how we are going to talk to one another. All right? Im not that guy. You cannot put me in that category. "The biological father that I spend every other week with, and I make polite conversation while he drives me places and buys me shit." No, talk to me!

Samantha how was your week? Uh, i dont know dad, it's kinda tough. Billy and Ellen broke up, and Ellen's kinda mad at me, cause she saw me and Billy talking at the cafeteria. And you remember that sculpture I was working on, well , it was a unicorn and the horn broke off , so now it is a zebra ,OK? But I still think I'm gonna get an A . Right?

Mason, how was your week? Well, Dad, you know it was kind tough.Joey is kind of jerk. Actually He stole some cigarettes from mom and he wanted me to smoke them, but i said no cause i knew what a hard time you had quitting smoking, Dad. How about that ? Is that so hard?

-Dad, these questions are kind of hard to answer.

-Why it is so hard to answer about sculpture you are making?

-It's abstract.

-Ok. Ok.That's good. You see, I didn't know that , I didn't know you were even interested in abstract art.

-I'm not.They make us do it.

But Dad, I mean, why is it all on us, though? What about you? How was your week? You know, who do you hang out with?Do you have a girlfriend? What have you been up to?

-I see your point. So we just let them happen more natural. That's what you're saying? Ok , that's what we'll do. Starting now.

一张桌子，晚饭进行。这是一个再简单不过的对话。

“今天学校怎么样啊？”

“没怎么样。”

“跟同学怎么样啊？”

“挺好的。”

就是我妹和爸妈的对话。我以为很好理解，其实不是，那是要一起成长过才知道的。

这种场景发生在我身上或许极少，仅有的是在大一时期，跟父母的谈话生疏，有时甚至觉得尴尬。他们曾说我死气沉沉的，这种“死气沉沉”不是像影片中那样来自青春期的迷茫怠倦，是心理上的疏离，是更习惯在内心思索一遍，我很难感受到他们在那些重要时期的参与，可是成长就是这样，不是所有人都如你期待的那样，与你一同奔跑远走的，我很理解。

如同《目送》里的经典场景，“有些事，只能一个人做，有些关，只能一个人过，有些路啊，只能一个人走。”

About Music

There is no favarite Beatles. That's what i'm saying . It's in the balance. That's what made them the greatest fucking rock band in the world , okay?.And there's decade of music out there, that's been scattered and now it has been carefully found, arranged and ordered for you by your loving father.

Ok, look at that. Uh, top of Volume II, first four tracks. You've got Band on the Run into MY Sweet Lord into Jealous Guy into Photograph. Come on! It's like the perfect segue. You got Paul, who takes you to the party, George who talks to you about God, John is just, "No, it's about love and pain," and Wingo who just says "Hey. Can't we enjoy what we have while we have it?" It's a good record. I shit you not.

这个场景对我来说，太熟悉了。关于音乐，有好多的回忆。我小时候听的所有传统民歌、传统器乐和港台流行乐，都来源于我爸的磁带或者他唱。我能想起来的就是蒋大为的《北国之春》，还有《在那遥远的地方》，还有一种草原类的民歌，如“蓝蓝的天上白云飘，白云下面马儿跑”等等。而我更喜欢的是，陈百强、谭咏麟、蔡琴、齐秦、周华健、张雨生等港台歌手。当时的我完全无法融入班级里的音乐氛围，班主任问我能不能唱SHE的什么歌，我真得没跟上潮流。

有一段时间，我觉得跟我爸一起散步是尴尬的事情。因为他总是在街道上，旁若无人地纵情放歌。或是我到了开始知道尴尬的年纪，我感受到整条街的目光如同聚光灯般热辣辣地，打在他的身上顺便我身上他很享受，我却焦灼无比，“能不能小点儿声啊扰民啊。”而他唱的什么《祝酒歌》什么《敖包相会》《乌苏里船歌》等，这些个独特唱腔，招徕式的歌词“来来来啊来来来来……”，“ 阿朗赫赫尼那赫赫雷赫赫尼那 ……”，热情大方奔放自由，但够我抓狂的了。

他走多远便唱多远，在归家的落日黄昏，在散步的夜色微醺。在下班的自行车上。小区的拐角处，他的特色声波开始穿透，“诶是你爸回来了”门卫说。“你爸回来了，你快回去吃饭”，住在3栋的姑姑叫我。楼梯间的歌声伴着皮鞋落地的节奏，“你爸回来了，收拾一下吃饭”，我妈说。还有，童年那些所有小偷小摸、与学习无关的事情在听到他的歌声的那一刻，全部戛然停止，扯掉电视插头，或是急关电脑，从床上跳起来，或是铺好作业本。

他跟我讲音乐。我印象最深刻的是一起听俞丽拿小提琴版的《梁祝》，小时候没认真看以为她叫俞丽，后来才知道她叫俞丽拿。是一个很认真的周末上午，他很认真地教我怎么听这段音乐。用的是平常听英语用的录音机和磁带。

-好，这一段，是不是很灵动，节奏在跳跃，听出来什么乐器

-他们在学堂，读书写字，在草地上嬉戏打闹，什么都很美好，舒缓的

-你想一想，刚刚这一段主人公是什么样的心情，是一个什么样的场景

-梁山伯病重，注意听什么乐器，还有旋律

这些记忆像是宝藏一样，一直珍藏至今。那些对音乐的感知方式，令我在聆听音乐时的内心有更多丰富的滋味。好的音乐或是好的艺术总是有很多层次很多视角被人们所感知所体验，它是波涛汹涌，或是涓涓溪流，都能为每一个时代的人所挖掘。

About Dreams

-I'm worried about you Mason.

-Why is that?

-I'll tell you why. The images you are turning in, they're cool. You are looking at things in a really unique way. Got a lot of natural talent. But that 50 cents will just get you a cup of coffee in this old world.I' ve met a lot of talented people over the years? How many of them made it professionally without displine, commitment and really good work ethic.I can tell you, I can cout it on two fingers, zero.

The world is too competitive. There are too many talented people who are willing to work hard, and a butt load of morons who are untalented who are more willing to surpass you. As a matter of fact, a lot of them are sitting in that classroom out there right now, hmm? You know what they're doing? They are doing their assignments, which is what you are supposed to be doing but you are not , you are in here. Now why is that? You special, Mason?

About Social App

I'm just not doing it for attention. I just wanna try and not live my life through a screen.I want some kind of actual interaction. A real person, not just the profile they put up.

About Part-time Experience

父亲在电话里问Mason在餐馆打工的情况，孩子是这样说的。

'It's good. But it's definitely an interesting perspective on the world. People are slobs.'

(chuckles)哈哈我和他老爸一同笑了。

A little bit of dicisiveness goes a long way in this life, right?

想起我有一年春节在大卖场卖衣服的体验。真的是跟我妈一起买年货的时候，突发奇想，跟老板娘说我要来这打工。老板娘勉强答应了（看着我一副不能做事的样子）。

那确实是一个很有趣的视角去跟人沟通打交道。每个人会有每个人的顾虑犹疑和权衡打算。听那个跟我搭班的小姑娘的牢骚与埋怨与生活，跟她相处的半个月我开始意识到生活还有命运很大部分受制于客观背景，什么样的背景影响着你能接收到什么样的资源，即便身处流动性极强的大城市。而强烈的上进与觉醒的力量或许一直以来为我所高估。

她听我的生活也像是在听某个不一样的事，我不知道我对她的鼓励有没有用（有时候我很习惯随口鼓励别人，我总以为那是好的）。她只是笑着，接着她会解释她今天很累，害羞地恳求我能不能把我的单挂在她的单上，这样老板不会指责她今天没做好生意。第一天我说可以啊，第二天她已经不再问我直接这样行事了。很快，这份兼职我也坚持不下去了，热情殆尽，精力殆尽。

还有一位来自海南的大学生，他看我做事，他会跟我讲怎么让人们自己去做出选择，这是一个权衡的过程，你得给人家时间，我也才意识到自己学习上急吼吼的心理原来投射在方方面面。

Farewell, Boyhood

-All the more reason to leave it behind, right?

(sobbing)

-This is the worst day in my life. I knew this day was coming. I didn't know you were gonna be so fuckin' happy to be leaving.

You know what I'm realizing? My life is just gonna go, like that. This series of milestones. Getting married. Having kids. Getting divorced. The time that we thought you were dyslexic when I taught you how to ride a bike. Getting divorced again. Getting my master's degree. Finally getting the job I wanted. Sending Samantha off to college. Sending you off to college.

You know what's next? Huh? It's my fuckin' funeral! Just go! And leave my picture! I just thought there would be more.

这一种失落感，我常常尝试着站在我奶奶的角度去体验，她常常说先是爷爷去世了，你爸去顶职，大姑出嫁了，二姑出嫁了，三姑出嫁了，四姑出嫁了，小爸工作了，小姑出嫁了，我们都搬走了。她老了，还留着干什么呢。不同的情绪，不同的表达，却都是一个意思，感到终于盼到了头想休息了却发现自己已被悄悄地掏空。

暂且想到哪儿就写到哪儿吧。自律自律