2020/11/8

I.

不知道是zucchini这个不圆不方还滑不溜秋的蔬菜，还是太执迷于knife sharpner所以刀都锋利的可以割喉，总之切zucchini一下子手指两大道伤口。kitchen counter上像犯罪现场paper towel全是血还止不住，手举过头顶举了十分钟也没用一刚（伪科学）。然后我就回屋子里抱着hono委屈的哭了给她看伤口要她用小短手给抱抱。然后我马上就下手了food chopper，钱要花在刀刃上才行！

update: the food chopper is defected... so i returned it.. i just no longer eat zucchini

II.

理了很多不用的锅碗瓢盆和mugs捐去salvation army, 顺便把一些stuffed animals也理出了几个捐掉。拿过去的时候一个大叔过来把我的包包拿走，接手的时候我摸摸bunny说bye bye，大叔超可爱的说say bye bye。希望我的所有娃娃都可以被好心人收养！与其呆在我的冷宫还是给人家抱在手里的好！以后如果ever need a pick-up to feel good about yourself, i would say go donate!! doing charity deeds can really life up your spirit!!

III.

从小成长在critical parenting环境下的小孩很容易internalize criticism. 朋友父母要求她回国因为他们说“你又不在苹果谷歌上班，这种不三不四的活有什么好接的” (she's a freelance creative tech designer: she has already found some good projects and two companies are offering full time transfers and all projects pay well. ) 凭什么freelancer在父母眼里就是“不三不四”。我问那你现在这么焦虑回去的原因是什么？因为she prefers staying here for the time being. 她说因为被爸妈说多了真的开始觉得自己的freelance是不三不四的，在想是不是回国可以去更大的公司。我说1) you know the job perspective in the industry more than your parents, majority of creative tech is in freelance field and you are in the right trajectory; 2) you need to be confident and proud of your own accomplishment and be assertive about it, and you can't let your parents take it away from you. 3) be patient in conversations with parents becuase they don't have information, so be prepared to explain to discuss and to convince. In the end you make your own decision but make sure that you can be economically independent. 看来我妈虽然焦虑但真的是个软主意的人要好好珍惜（想回家）

IV.

最近和朋友的multiple conversations got me more interested in composting and recycling so some resources:

- recycle beauty/skincare/personal care empties with credo beauty: https://credobeauty.com/blogs/clean-scene/recycle-your-empties-with-credo or with L'occitane: https://www.loccitane.com/en-us/terracycle

- recycle your nail polish with Tenoverten: https://tenoverten.com/pages/recycling

- dispose your medicine responsibly with CVS: https://www.cvs.com/content/safer-communities-locate or Walgreens: https://www.walgreens.com/topic/pharmacy/safe-medication-disposal.jsp

- TerraCycle for all the programs (personal care/ beauty/ fabric products/ household products): https://www.terracycle.com/en-US/

- Bamboo/ recycled toilet paper: Reel Paper https://www.talkable.com/x/rJM20e; Who Gives A Crap:https://us.whogivesacrap.org/

V.

Being so cheerful the past two days - i walked, and spinned, and played and bought myself a good pretty candle and finally got that white canvas shoulder bag i've been dreaming of and it's so gorgeous!

Also took Hono out for the first subway ride after so so long - she's such a sophisticated traveller now ❤️

Epilogue. 11/7/2020

I took the week off, but instead, it felt more exhausting than regular work days. How do people even pay attention at work this week? I would be so dispirited- distracted- overwhelmed- impatient- (too) excited, some real intense emotional rollercoaster especially tuesday night and wednesday..

SO: it's our chance now- to support and protect this 78 year-old and pray for his good health and good spirit. It's only gonna get better from here now & remain hopeful!! 💙

and instead of a song, let's hear some (truth-striken) jokes: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Un_VvR_WqNs&ab_channel=SaturdayNightLive