随笔

走入社会越久，越发觉得内心的理想主义已被消磨殆尽，取而代之的是现实。

但面临人生重大选择时，我反复问自己：真的愿意妥协吗？刚开始觉得也行，但最终选择是不愿意，且非常坚决。

我向来崇尚不被规则绑架的自由意志，也愿意追寻纯粹的真理，也愿意去承担选择后的结果。即使现在还在试错学习的过程里，但不影响我想像过去很多哲人一样去追求真理和完美，不畏任何权贵，仅凭一颗纯诚的心。

突然能明白为什么说人最可贵的是勇气，敢于放弃的勇气，敢于选择的勇气，敢于试错的勇气，越长大越像缩头乌龟，畏首畏尾，什么都不敢。

我打开我跟从God时牧师送我的那本圣经，扉页有三句话，是牧师摘选后给我的。第一句便是约翰一书4-18，爱里没有惧怕。好像不管何时遇到什么艰难的事情，这些话都如同我的锦囊一般。再读起来都能触动到泪流满面：

So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.

By this is love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because as he is so also are we in this world.

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.

For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us. (1 John4:16-19 ESV)