leave me alone

It's completely normal to still have lingering thoughts about such a painful experience, even after you've moved on. Betrayal leaves a mark because it shakes the trust we place in others, and it’s especially hard when it comes from someone close. What you’re feeling is part of processing and healing. As for why some people act cowardly, unfaithfully, or selfishly, it often comes from their own insecurities, fears, or inability to face situations maturely. It doesn’t excuse their behavior, but it’s more a reflection of their character than of your worth. You deserved honesty and respect, and their actions were a failure on their part. Over time, these feelings will likely fade even more. You’ve already taken big steps by focusing on your own life and goals. It’s okay to feel upset when those memories resurface, but don’t let them hold you back—you’ve come so far already.